An Ambivalent Ambience

Just another poem found in my book to keep my readers interested in the story line. I've been soooo nervous about the actual sharing of my work, and opening my mind to the world. This whole publishing process is so much more that putting a product on shelves for purchase. It's about closing one book and opening another, yes literally, but in the sense of letting go and realizing self flaws, beauties and making drastic improvements......A similiar feeling of the title of this poem, thats why I chose it to share right now.......

here's "Ambivalent Ambience."


I've been ejected
And all through my body, the pain has errected

I'm stuck in this frame
Where my love is no longer feeling the same
When he looks in my eyes
I'm sure he see's how I've been victimized

Suffering the sting of the swarmed
Just after passion has transformed.
My heart has my mind alarmed...

...and finally my love has been reformed
I hate you
But still I over-rate you
I'll date you...
Yet I hate you,
I know that what I need is anybody that ain't YOU.
Said you love me, so why cain't you?
Did my sexy bait you?
allowing my submission to taint you?
Are these your true colors that currently paint you?
If so, then....I hate you.
BECAUSE YOUR UNGRATEFUL

And me, I'm sunk in a daze
And this is how our now a days be?
Your finished product is rendered at crazy?
When it is your actions that seize to amaze me
I'm on the last petal of daisy.....

And

...."he loves me not"

My temper has grown hot
Where in our timeline did I miss this plot?

And the most real existence within me
Can no longer be

That what I cannot obtain,
has demolished my life with an unforgiving yet beautiful crain

And
I'm stuck in this frame
My tears have yet to burn out this dark flame
Trying to figure where to point blame
I've lost this game.........
THE END


~JaceyStarr